I should know this by now.
I mean, I’m not the only one who suffers, who has it rough, who laughs when they’d rather cry.
I’m so sensative. All it takes is for a few people to call me an idiot and to get over it to make me burst into tears.
Because I’m always thinking about how other people see me.
And I can already tell that I’m not liked or wanted around here.
But I’m not going to complain. I’m going to take the pain. I’m going to cry and cry and cry, but I’ll take it and I’ll smile because that is what everyone wants. I should never complain, there are those who have it far worse than me. I have absolutely no right to complain about anything. I really am selfish. I know. People are going to tell me that. In my face.
People are going to call me an idiot, a stupid piece of crap, a worthless excuse for a human. But I’m not going to complain about it. There’s nothing I can do about it anyway. I’ll just pretend I’m happy, because being depressed makes people hate me more. Like some I know.
I’m losing friends. Fast. Nobody likes a drama queen. Spade is right, I don’t want to die. I’m too scared. I’m a coward. But I’m not the only coward who runs from things. Other people do it too. I just feel more crappy about it because I hope that putting my depression out there would help me. I guess not. ._. iSpade is totally right. I’m still really upset though because I made people and him feel more scorn for me and that makes me feel worse. I’m sorry everyone. I’m sorry. Just.. don’t hate me… please. </pathetic>
I don’t want this to sound like a quitting blog. ‘Cause then I would get banneded…. ed.
But I need a break. I’ll be on SMS, but if you want to talk, you’ll have to find me wandering around.
Okay so I can’t avoid making this sound like a quitting blog. -.o; *Coughdammitcough*
Soooooo… yeah.
I’m a selfish idiot… blah blah blah, drama queen, blah blah blah, Spade is starting to hate me, blah blah blah, can’t hate myself anymore that I do now, blah blah blah, gonna smile and be happy and all that other bull, blah blah blah.
Bye-bye, have a nice day! :D
~Happy Mapling from 13lue to you. 
I still love you!
*grope*
Please blue, just calm down from your thoughts.
We don’t have anything against you but just calm down.
The more you think about it, the more frustrated you will become
No quit pliz.
It’s okay, I’m not going to quit! I’m just gonna take a. . . vacation! ^^
~13lue
It would be really nice to ask why your friends aren’t talking to you right now.
Maybe I could help from there? F8
[♠]
Lol, considering you made like 10 blogs in 10 days that’s a pretty hard goal
For a vacation you should go to some island instead, a vacation in your house is pretty dull
*if you don’t cheer up, i’m gonna gift you a humongous rhinocerous!*
*grope*
I love Jaz more!
*grope x2*
o.0
Um, it’s okay? At least you have us as friends, right? </symphathy> Also, you should go to the beach. Just have fun in the sun.
~Podeuro
Edit: “I love Jaz the most!” *grope x4*
Edit #2: If you really hate everybody on SMS, move on. Go back to Global, or play Combat Arms or something. It sounds as if you feel really sad and stressed.
No! Don’t play Global! Global is gey! Play SMS so I can stalk you!
I don’t know if you consider me your friend or not. I really feel guilty about all this. I feel like I caused all these problems. . .
I don’t know if you consider me your friend or not, but. . .
I’m not talking to your because you told me to leave you alone.
I’m assuming you still don’t want to talk to me right now anyways.
That’s why instead I’m posting a message and letting you consider replying or just reading it and going away.
You probably read my blog.
I don’t know if you consider me your friend or not, but. . .
I’m not talking to your because you told me to leave you alone.
I’m assuming you still don’t want to talk to me right now anyways.
That’s why instead I’m posting a message and letting you consider replying or just reading it and going away.
You probably read my blog.”
Hah, Hakuna Matata, Arley. No worries, I’m over it now and everything’s okay. Boy, I feel great when I’m being positive. (Lion King ilu <3)
Hakuna Matata, Ha-ku-na Ma-ta-TA~ So if you wanna talk, just come and find meh. ^^
~13lue
13lue…
I know nothing of this incident, but…
You sound a lot like me. In a way. And something just happened in RL that made me feel like absolute crud. I could elaborate, but I’m not going to do it in this post where everyone on MMOT and the world can read. Just know that I’m pretty pathetic sometimes. And honestly… I believe people have a right to be pathetic.
Close your eyes, step back, and take a look at something else. That’s what I do.
Unless you already have. I can’t tell.
Omg that movie was the best. =/
Aiii I cant get SMS to work. . .
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People get on Dagon w/e it gets done with the server checks D:
Nebar.