(Heh, it rhymes again!)
Okay, to a more serious note. School starts in about an hour, so I have some time to write. I’m not sure what it’s going to be like (first year of high-school – GASP! You all know my age now. . . Oh well) Being very confused with all of the new stuff, I ask a lot of questions. Questions my dad thinks I should already know the answers to, and he’s blaming my lack of knowledge on MapleStory. And so he has drastically reduced my “gaming” time, and to them, “gaming” is pretty much anything that is not homework or any work in general. So now I barely even have enough time to turn on the computer and check my emails before my time is up.
I’ve tried explaining this to people before, but they don’t quite understand. MapleStory isn’t all about leveling and being the “best,” sure, that’s part of the reason, but there’s so much more to it. There’s the community. If meeting people from around the world, learning new customs and making new friends is “social” enough, then today’s society’s parents’ standards are much too high.
I’ve met my best friend in MapleStory, he’s given me reasons to live, reasons to wake up every day. If not for him, I’d be dead by now, and there has never been a moment where that thought doesn’t cross my mind. I need him, I love him, just like I love all my friends.
Maybe I’m just in a depressed mood, maybe I’m just miffed, or maybe this could be the last of me. (But knowing me, I’ll probably find some way to visit my friends. . . Somehow)
at the end when you say you’ll find a way to visit your friends you mean your ms friends?
Um. . .
Nice blog, but I don’t think basing your reasons to live on a game with someone you partially know is a good reason at all. I’m not trying to flame you or anything, that is only my opinion.
However, if your friends. . . whoever it may be (In Maple or in High School) I guess that’s a good reason to live. . . I guess. Many people live for many different reasons. So yeah, I respect your reasons.
Have fun in High School
No worries with highschool =) I started last year, and knew about 5 people. I was the only girl from my other school, so i was pretty much the loner on the first day. But you jsut gotta be willing to talk with people.
Good luck =)
gujju ♥
lmfao, at least you knew someone. Imma be a loner in 30 mins, when school starts
Wow your dad must be a real slave driver
depression is contagious! defend against it! fight it! or just live it until thanksgiving. no offense, but school is really putting a low to maplers and, im guessing, other mmorpgers.
Ok, well:
@Oblivion: Yes, I mean my MS friends
@Aaru: Sorry I guess I didn’t explain myself enough. Jaq is my best friend, he’s helped me so much, he’s always been there for me. I’ve been in depressions before where I go through delusions and fantasize over commiting suicide. But then I think of him, and it makes me want to live another day to maybe see his face once more.
This is really getting to me now. I’ve worried all my friends and I’m not sure if they should be, or I should too. On one hand, I’m getting into the high-school rhythm and I have moments where I think I can go on like this, but then on the other hand, my parent’s are on my ass every minute with “high school this” and “high school that” and “you’re such a baby do your work.”
WHAT THE F***!
They act like MapleStory is draining my intelligence! I f***ing started last year, and it was the best school year of my life! I f***ing got all 80%+ on my report card and even the 100%+ every now and then! I’ve been going to a f***ing gifted school since grade 5! And my dad f***ing gets mad at me because I got a 64% on a test in my worst subject because I missed a few classes! At least I f***ing tried! Is that too f***ing much to ask!
MapleStory is my escape from all that f***ing pressure! They want me to be like my sister! And when I do just as good or sometimes better they barely say more than “good for you!”
Okay! So I’m f***ing ranting, but I’m just pissed! If I really think about it, I’m a lucky kid, I have a loving family and I have so many things that I’m just really happy, but I would give it all away in a heartbeat just to be able to see my friends. Yesterday, I logged on MSea and to my surprise I got a buddy invite from Silver’s Gastropoda. I had been meaning to try to see her for so long, what with the time difference and all, and when I finally get to talk to her a bit, my parents tell me to stop playing games and get off the computer!
Sure, this may seem extreme, but it’s what’s really getting to me. I’m always fighting with my mom, fights that start instantly, are fought louder than than my throat can handle, and end in defeat, always. And they wonder why I’m so nasty and non-sociable, why I can’t be bothered to look people in the eye without feeling immense hatred, even if I don’t even know them. But, here, im my own little world, in my channel 4 of Broa, I’m a completely different person. I know what I’m doing, I can be with my friends, I take it with the noobs, the kind, the jerks, and I love every minute, it’s my Maplestory.
They have no idea what they’re doing to me! It’s torture! Being so close to my friends but being denied the opprotunity to see them! Parent’s shouldn’t be there to stop their kids from having friends, they should be encouraging them to make them! They see MapleStory as just a game, but I see if as a small chance to really live.
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Well, I wrote that a few days ago. . . I guess I’ve cooled off a bit (And I was temporarily restricted from posting due to my. . . Colourful yet repetitive vocabulary.) I’ve been trying to reason with them, but it’s gettin a bit worse. I hate when my mom goes out of herway to insult me and start fights then acts so “innocent” when my dad gets involved. I’ve been able to get on MapleStory for an hour or two if my homework isn’t too much and before my dad comes home.
Now that the weekend has come around, I hope to get on MapleStory a bit, and I’ve made sure to do my homework as soon as I get home every day. But I’m still not even done since I got a lot, and I fell asleep. . . For two hours XD
Well, I can understand perfectly well that you’re upset at your parents, and I can relate and say it’s a stupid thing to do from them if you indeed keep up with things, and don’t spend 12 hours straight playing, but actually study too.
But you also need to try to cool off some and understand: They are -parents-. They worry about you. They want the best for you. While they may not express it in the proper way, or not see things your way, they are trying to look after you.
I’m not in any way trying to diss anyone or side with anyone. I’m talking from experience. I’m talking because at some point in life I’ve gone through the same, and because not too long ago I spent every single day in a house where it was the exact opposite thing- the kids there got to do whatever they wanted for as long as they wanted, and they couldn’t even add 2+2. In HIGHschool.
Yes, your parents may be overreacting, and yes, I know how very distressing it can be when you only get to communicate to your friends online (be it by chat, game, or email, ) and can’t. Specially if you couldn’t tell them you’d be away.
But, is it really worth it to get depressed and angst on a fight over that? To get yourself, your mother, your father, everyone angry over such thing, with neither side winning?
Can you really not tell them “We need to talk.” and explain? And I don’t mean explain starting with “I want to play because.” but with “I feel that, ” and “My best friends are online, “?
I think even most overreacting parents, if they see you serious and calm enough, and you talk throughly with them, will let you get to a sort of deal that will benefit both parties.
For instance: If your grades go below x you will not play for x. If you have a lot of homework you will only play for x hours.
Or something to that extent.
At any rate, I hope things work out. People need to learn to talk and not scream. ^^;
Oh, and, the key to winning an argument is staying cool.
And having a good argument yourself. XD But remaining calm sure helps.
My mother doesn’t believe that my online friends are good for me. And she confiscates my modem, which makes it really funky when I just want to get online to chat, even if it is on MSN. Chafe as I do at her restrictions, I know it is for my own good, to borrow a cliche phrase. But it is darn irritating to be unable to get online whenever I want, much less Maple.
I understand about the arguments starting without reason at all. I get that all the time, at home. I’ll just be sitting there minding my own business, then wham, I’ll start arguing with my mom/sis/brother. My father isn’t even at home for me to argue with, which is one reason why the arguments start. After we argue, we just steam it off in our own little corners of the cluttered apartment, then forget about it. It’s life, I guess.
Glad to know you got over it