Because of You

Author’s Note: So apparently I can start a clan in Combat Arms. But since my internet is teh suc, I can’t make a clan T.T. Yes that’s right. That’s my pathetic excuse for making this MMO related. I’m very very sorry.

~Because of You~

Remember what you told me?
That day I left for the world?
You said the sun would guide me.
My life, my paths, everything.
You said the moon would watch over me as I sleep.
Protect me from the dangers of the world.
You said that you loved me.
And you were never going to leave me.
You said all those things.
You promised.
Yet I can’t find myself to believe you.
Not now.

I wanted to believe you.
When you told me everything was going to be alright.
I wanted to trust in you.
But your words just slip away.
Your lips say that you love
And that nothing would happen to me.
To us.
But reality sets in and the veil is lifted.
My eyes see what you really are.
A liar, a cheat, the devil incarnate.

I’ve spent countless hours by myself.
Hiding from your words.
Hundreds of days in despair.
With your lies tucked firmly in my mind.
Even now as I write this.
The tears spill out once more.
The hole in my heart tearing open even deeper.
I can’t stand it.
I can’t stand you.

So why did you have to do this?
Why did you have to leave me stranded with your lies?
We could have been happy.
Oh how I wish I could taste the feeling of perfection.
But what you did.
My life will never be the same.
So why, tell me.
Why did you have to break your promise?

I don’t even know how I feel anymore.
My fingertips tremble, unable to grasp the facts.
I don’t know what to say.
Am I angry? Sad? Happy?
The numbness surrounds me.
So because of you, I’ve lost my surroundings.
Everything is a blur.
A whirlpool of images.

Yet every day, your promises cross my mind.
And I hate myself for thinking of it.
I keep thinking tomorrow may change.
That maybe it will all be okay.
But each new sunrise brings about the same thing.
Each new Tomorrow bring around another Today.
And each Today is another twenty four hours of pain.

Those three simple words.
Said too much.
Said too little.
They claw at my heart with razor sharp talons.
The jagged hole in my chest pouring forth blood.
Staining the floor crimson.
The color of love.
The color of hate.

Why did you do this to me?
Made me fall on my knees in sorrow.
I can’t even see you anymore.
I’m not even allowed to think of you.
But my mind wanders.
You wander into my mind.
I try not to think about you.
Why can’t you just let me be?
I should’ve known you’d bring me heartache.

My mind is in chaos.
My heart is throbbing.
I need you now, more than ever.
Why did you leave me now?
I told you thousands of times that I loved you.
Yet now, the favor will never be returned.
Because of you, I am broken.
You are gone.

As I lay here in a pool of my own tears.
I can’t help but wonder of what could have been.
Of us.
Maybe something will change.
Maybe tomorrow, everything will be perfect once more.
Maybe I’ll see you again some day.
Maybe not.

Please don’t go, Grandpa.
Don’t leave me here alone.
Don’t go where I can’t follow…

-=The Nazgul=-

5 thoughts on “Because of You”

  1. Because of You is the name of ALOT of songs. lol

    But this poem brings me back to about 3 years ago. Saddest time of my life.

  2. gujju said: “Because of You is the name of ALOT of songs. lol”

    Yea that’s true

  3. trevtsang said: “-tears coming out of eyes-

    Oh, sorry. Allergies ;D”

    Don’t lie to the Nazgul plx.

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