9 months has it been, since I last wrote a blog. I feel like I have so much to tell, I just haven’t had the time.

“Didn’t have time”… Typically my excuse…

Nonetheless, here goes. Starting where I left off.
I had gotten 3rd job. I enjoyed my first point in Assaulter to the fullest and I was feeling at home in my new guild, Renegade. At that time, goals to keep grinding weren’t all that necessary and time just passed as I grew stronger. Of course, due to my lack of goals I didn’t plan ahead and in the late 70’s I found out that I couldn’t afford a level 80 pirate set. That immediately took the breath out of my training and I felt like hitting a brick wall.

But only shortly after that, Nova came to my rescue. The guild master. Without any reason he gave me his level 80 set. The results of his actions that has had an impact on me are beyond any gratitude I can ever show him.

Accepting his gift (as if I had a choice…) I felt like I had made him a promise. I had to get level 80 no matter the cost. Surely I got it. And he pushed me further. This time by giving me a cursayer. And a finely scrolled one at that. Another gift from him that to me felt like giving another promise. Another promise that had to be held.

Unfortunately, nothing last forever. Personal issues and a sudden streak of inactivity and Renegade, the guild I saw as my home, fell apart.

Still, a promise is a promise, at least it was to me. That promise was fulfilled. After a long time I finally reached level 90 for no other reason than that cursayer. And at the same time lost all reason to keep going. My friends keep me in the game, but levelling is going slower than ever before. Not only has my potion expenses seemed to sky-rocketed with little to no profit gained whatsoever, It has also become flat-out mind-numbing.

But I keep going, trying to reattain the mindset of my 70’s.
Reaching for a goal set by yourself is nothing like reaching for one set by someone else.

There was something special about Renegade, that I can’t forget. I truly felt at home and among friends there. Maybe it was that they discovered that I’m a girl incredibly fast, though I can’t remember entirely how that happened. Maybe it was that everyone knew each other so well. Or maybe we were all just on the same wave-length. Whatever it was, I miss it. Thank you Nexon, for buddy-listing.
But here and now for my part: a final goodbye. Rest in peace, Renegade. May your spirit live on in your members.

Well, all this took a load off of my heart. I should do it more often I guess.

~¤ Scarlet ¤~