Ugh. First blog about my actual life. It sucks, I’ll tell you that.

First off, I learned about two months ago that this girl I’ve been drooling over for the past two years doesn’t like me back, but the worst thing is, I still love her. But now, I’ve grown feelings for another girl, so I sorta like both >< which I think is just messed up.

Home. Away from my friends, safe with my family.

Not.

I’ve recently found out my father cheated on my mom with his brother’s wife while she was here on vacation with us. Even worse, I learned he got her pregnant ten years ago. Now my parents haven’t told me yet, so I’m not supposed to know, but I won’t say how I found out >.>

First thing I think of is divorce, and I’ve heard my mom talking on the phone to relatives about it often lately. She thinks I don’t know what they’re saying because she’s speaking in taiwanese or chinese, so she talks to them right in front of me, but I go crazy when I hear her talking about that. She mentioned the other day on the phone that when they divorced, she’d have to financially support my dad because his business is going down the drain. Even worse, my mom’s a teacher. [sarcasm] And everyone knows teachers are as rich as Bill Gates. [/sarcasm] So I’m worrying about us financially.

That’s all I can really think of right now. What a holly jolly Christmas I’ll have, eh?

Thanksgiving too.

[sarcasm] O lord, thank thee for giving me a father who commits adultery. [/sarcasm]

Funny thing is, I haven’t cried at all. Or felt sad. Or any emotion.

Seriously. I’m not kidding about this.

I’m cold.

It’s life, I guess.

Life sucks.

EDIT: That was really unorganized, but I don’t feel like doing anything.

School isn’t helping either, I used to be a straight A student, but now my grades are dropping like hell.