I said I wouldn’t..

I said I wouldn’t go and make a big deal and write a blog but I am.

I’m sitting here in my chair trying to hold myself back from IMing him and nudging him to go to sleep since it’s about. 2 hours past his bedtime~x] [Kill me for caring x)]

So.. who’s he?

The guy that I spent 3 months drooling over. The guy that trained me when no one else believed I could level. The guy that listened to me.

:S So. What’s the villian in this all-to-typical love tale? Maybe miscommunication, lack of contact..

It was happy and all in the begining. [What relationship isn’t?] With every second that passed in school, it was one second closer to him. I remember talking to him late into the night about absolutely nothing. Asking him to download songs, read pages I’ve found, watch videos I found on MS. Having someone to be with in-game too. Having someone to whisper to while I train, the motivation, the anxiousness of each reply.

But I remember reading Annikabelle’s [Did I spell that right?] blog.. Maple relationships are like fireworks..They are all beautiful in the beginning, but they shimmer and disappear in the end.. I was reading that and just thinking to myself.. No.. Not me. But time showed me who was right, eh? He stopped wanting to talk to me at night after MS, he’d rather play. He stopped hanging around me. He stopped talking to me after school. I guess.. I derno..

I don’t want to blame this all on him, because well. It’s not all his fault. It’s my fault for training so much. [I think? That’s what he said. o.0;;] It’s my fault for not being able to love someone I barely even hold a conversation with.

I guess the blame, if there is any, is shared. His love for the game came before me even though he said it didn’t. There are somethings words can’t change no matter how hard you try to believe it.

I guess. I miss him. I miss having someone around to talk to. Someone to listen to me and not leave. Someone to bother when I’m b0red. [Or not.~x3]

I guess this is the end of another chapter in my ‘MapleStory’. [Wow. Corny. xD]

I miss having a best friend. I miss having someone there for me in MapleStory. I miss my old buddies. I miss the old MS. I miss Runaways. I miss not missing anything. Or anyone.

15 thoughts on “I said I wouldn’t..”

Whoah, I thought you were a guy, but here you are talking about your “male” lover? The only other explanation for this is that, ZOMG!
~When you said that Annikabelly or w/e said that love’s like fireworks, it made me think that you can say love is like anything. For example: Love is like a Hot Pocket. You’ll be fond of it and appreciate it in the beginning, but when it’s all gone and eaten, you’ll regret ever starting to eat it.

~Cheezy

._____.;; HAVE YOU NOT LOOKED AT MY OLD BLOGS’ SCREENSHOTS?

And the SS are taken by RyuEbiAV [male lover] because I can’t take screenshots, he sent them over.

Lol actually no. I read like one of your blogs and assumed you were a guy. You had me going there, but I figured it out in the end. (when it became totally obvious; but I still got it)

~Cheezy

Why the heck is the guild called “Hentai”? Made me laugh lolz

Hey, what world you play in? That’s to you islapbabies. . .that name freaks me out.

~Le’ Chez

Yeah everyone, don’t be so harsh. She lost someone dear to her. I feel your pain, for I too have lost someone special to me.

DaDarkWithin said: “Yeah everyone, don’t be so harsh. She lost someone dear to her. I feel your pain, for I too have lost someone special to me.”

Who are you agreeing to with that we’re being harsh? How the hell are we even being harsh? Who the hell are you!? I don’t know you! Get outta my house!

~Cheezy

I don’t have to agree with anyone to call you harsh. I’m an old MMOTaler who took a break and is back currently. And I don’t think we are in your house. Or are we o_O