Bleh.. I feel like a piece of dog waste in a paper bag burning on someones porch.. I have so many problems due to this game so many emotions I never thought I’d actually have over this.. Things I don’t want to feel because they make me think less of myself.. I feel as though I have let her down for the promise I made to stay with her forever and yet she leaves me and doesn’t come back with very little response from her through out the year.. The feeling of loneliness has crept up on me and made me do things that I shouldn’t do.. I found myself caught in a trap maybe the one that this game creates to hold people in.. The story of a kid (me) and his lonely self..
The Beginning..
A fine day on MS as I mind my business walking around looking for necki skins.. I finally find a spot outside sleepywood where I find 2 ladies enjoying their day also.. I walk up to them and say “Hello good looking how are you today?” They laugh and say “Hello, Person Fine.” I keep on walkin
g hanging around them talking as I get the skins.. I eventually buddy them and they become my close friends we hang out and quest together so on.. Eventually I grow attached to her.. Her name is Joy.. She is nice and timid person who starts to care for me as I do for her.. I ask her to be my Maple Girlfriend just for fun at first and she agrees and so we are what we are.. Days go on and we are happy..
Always and Forever Ends…
We promise that we will be with each other forever then school comes.. and our contact shortens with every passing day.. She misses my company as do I hers.. So we decide to write letters to keep contact with each other.. It works out for a while and we grow even more attached.. but still not the same as talking everyday.. She tries hard at least thats what I thought to make contact with me.. Every time she was on I was there with her.. Waiting.. Until my waiting seemed to be pointless.. I felt sort of caught up in a pointless loneliness..
Someone New..
I found a new friend I met through a whole “Trapped In The Closet” scenario.. and we also grew close, maybe closer than me and Joy were.. But I feel Unsure of my feelings I also like this new lady.. Her Name is Neyra.. She says things that really make me feel like we are together but Im not sure if I am with her the way she wants us to be.. I feel that I chose to be with her to fill the lonely hole that I have and maybe thats why but I really care for her too..
Unsureness of it All
I don’t know what to do.. I feel distraught.. Emotionally.. I don’t know what to do and I don’t like hurting people.. I feel attached to both of them yet.. I don’t know what the hell to do it’s actually torturing me now.. My throat feels tight… I don’t know what my lady of long ago seems to have stopped trying on her success in anything but she still cares and I might not know it, It might just be my blindness but I’m sure she does…My new lady seems to care about me she’s there for me everyday but again I feel that it’s the crappy loneliness that made me want her.. I do care for both of them but I don’t know which to let go.. If I want to.. I just feel that it’s my fault and I’m sure it is.. I feel so disloyal.. Like the Dog waste in the paper bag..
~Dreamer
That indeed is a very complex problem, but I shall answer it with a simple answer. You know when you pick up sand and you just let is sit there, barely anything falls out? But then you grasp it a lot more firmly then almost all of it slips through your fingers? Well this applies to this situation a little. If you hold onto something too tightly, it will most definately slip right through your grasp, lost forever; however, if you grasp it, but not too tightly, you still have the situation under control, and if you would liek to let go, it will not be so hard. What I guess I am trying to say, is that let destiny play its role in life. (This is just a suggestion, let me remind you that destiney is a choice, not always a way of life, commit it to memory.)
Are you saying to choose my the lady I want? because that is the problem m having, I love them both dearly, I know I HAVE to choose but, It’s difficult, maybe if I just let go little by little to one Ill find out which one is that what your trying to say?
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You are going to be in one heck of a ride, so buckel up.
You are going to be in one heck of a ride, so buckel up.”
I guess I would have gotten one if I was prepared for this, GAH, Thanks Sumesh13 for your help, I’m just hoping the choice I make won’t Mess with me or the lady I leave,
i went through pretty much the same thing, and its still going on
what happened to me was i fell in love with my ms bff (he is a guy) but while i was waiting for him i found someone else, the thing is that i still liked my friend more then my bf.
the other day i found out that my bff was going to marry my guild leader, and i was crushed, not by the fact that they were getting married but that he never told me a dam thing. When he finally told me (after a week their proposal) i got pissed, i wanted to kill my guild leader for ‘stealing’ him.
the thing is, after i left the guild, he left and told me he never wanted to marry her. i felt a bit better about the whole situation. But after i told him how i felt about him, he said he felt the same way! i was shocked but the only problem was a few hours befor my bf proposed to me and i accepted, now im stuck between someone i love and someone im proposed to
its not verry similar to your story, but we all feel horrable emotions on maple story that we think we should never feel about a game. The thing is, this is more then just a game, you are dealing with real people in a semi real world. everyone feels emotions
what happened to me was i fell in love with my ms bff (he is a guy) but while i was waiting for him i found someone else, the thing is that i still liked my friend more then my bf.
the other day i found out that my bff was going to marry my guild leader, and i was crushed, not by the fact that they were getting married but that he never told me a dam thing. When he finally told me (after a week their proposal) i got pissed, i wanted to kill my guild leader for ‘stealing’ him.
the thing is, after i left the guild, he left and told me he never wanted to marry her. i felt a bit better about the whole situation. But after i told him how i felt about him, he said he felt the same way! i was shocked but the only problem was a few hours befor my bf proposed to me and i accepted, now im stuck between someone i love and someone im proposed to
its not verry similar to your story, but we all feel horrable emotions on maple story that we think we should never feel about a game. The thing is, this is more then just a game, you are dealing with real people in a semi real world. everyone feels emotions”
I know all that but it’s really hard choosing between the two because I feel for both of them and they are both my friends so its even harder but I already made my choice and I plan on sticking by it, She’s here for me and I’m gonna be there for her
I wish you luck on your situation animosity222 <3
~Dreamer
what happened to me was i fell in love with my ms bff (he is a guy) but while i was waiting for him i found someone else, the thing is that i still liked my friend more then my bf.
the other day i found out that my bff was going to marry my guild leader, and i was crushed, not by the fact that they were getting married but that he never told me a dam thing. When he finally told me (after a week their proposal) i got pissed, i wanted to kill my guild leader for ‘stealing’ him.
the thing is, after i left the guild, he left and told me he never wanted to marry her. i felt a bit better about the whole situation. But after i told him how i felt about him, he said he felt the same way! i was shocked but the only problem was a few hours befor my bf proposed to me and i accepted, now im stuck between someone i love and someone im proposed to
its not verry similar to your story, but we all feel horrable emotions on maple story that we think we should never feel about a game. The thing is, this is more then just a game, you are dealing with real people in a semi real world. everyone feels emotions”
Which one do you know in real life? Go with the one you know in real life, you might not know if your “bff” or your “bf”(whoever you do not know in real life), is a pedophile. However, if both are not real-lifers, then trust your instincts; go with the one you love more. Remember that love is something very fragile in nature, so chose wisely, and never lose sight of your choice. Commit this to memory.