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How should I feel now that they tell me yet deny that one of the best friends that I’ve ever had has died? How should I feel when I don’t believe it for a second, yet, people will hate me for disbelieving it? Someone on her Yahoo told me her last message to me (I’m sure you guys have this, too):
night_wolf_975: Is this Djien? Or Judy or something like that?
self: I could be
night_wolf_975: Um if it’s not, then I’m going to find her, I can’t give this message to anyone but her.
self: This is Judy.
night_wolf_975: Oh, alright then. That kid, Lee, probably said what happened already.
night_wolf_975: So, I’ll just pass on the message she left.
self: No it was Jonathan
night_wolf_975: Well, then you know the details already regardless. Her message was (this is exactly what she wrote) “Judy, I’m sorry. You were one of the best friends I ever have and you always knew when I was upset and were always there for me. I wanted to clarify why I said goodbye, so I am having Rachel come on and tell everyone. I said good bye because I realy did have cancer, I said it at that time because I had just found out that I was not going to make it as long as they first thought. It doesn’t matter, what I didn’t was wrong, but hey, I’m not here anymore, not a big deal. I just wanted to tell you I’m sorry. I wanted to tell you about it but I apparently picked a horrible day to do so, you snapped at me before I was able to, so I let it be. I couldn’t find a way to tell you so I took
night_wolf_975: The stupid and easy way out and gave up. I’m sorry. You were the best friend I ever had and I love you. I’m sorry any of this ever happened and I hope you live the best life possible. I’m sorry I will love you and mis you forever more.”
night_wolf_975: That’s what she wrote. read more