This is a blog of something special that once happened, now I’m making it into a one chapter story. Dedicated to someone who was once the most important person in my life, now no more than a face I see from a far away place. Andy, I don’t know what your thinking, or feeling. But I’m sorry it turned out this way.

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I saw this red dot, in the corner of the mini map. Subway Line 2 <Area 3>. No monsters, nothing, was on the map itself. As I searched the name again, krazybang, it read : ‘krazybang’ is currently at ‘Kerning City Subway : Line 2 <Area 3?’. No it wasn’t a mistake, it really was him. I was wondering, should I hate him? Or should I ask him if it was him or not…and if he did hack? I looked at my clock 2:37am. Doesn’t matter, I’ll ask him tommorrow. That night, I fell asleep thinking about it.

“Andy, were you hacking in the Subby last night?” I asked him in whispers.
Reply, “Dammit, =D you found out.”.
Soon, I went to his guild. Hacker’s Guild. Even though they hacked, all of them were really nice to me, and soon I fit in. They would always tease me about being the only legit one in the guild, and I would be, “But I won’t get banned =P”. As I watched my guild member’s lvl grow&grow, I started wondering…what it would be like to hack, and be a higher lvl? Within that month, I found out.

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“Andy, can you teach me how to hack?” I whispered to him, once again.
He laughed at me, and said, “Welcome to the Hackers”
But…he really didn’t know what he was in for.
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“Umm…Andy…WHAT?!” I was so fustrated, but laughing, knowing that I was making him mad too.
TempleNetWork Engine. Not very complicated, but at that time, it could’ve been ask as the question, “Does the galaxy EVER end?”
Basic Hacks : Fly. GodMode. Tubi.
I saw him fly before, to the very top part of the Subway, so I decided I wanted to try that first.
After we passed setup, and how to open MS with the hacks, I wanted to test it out.
“ANDY!!! I CAN’T FLY T____T IT DOESN’T WORK!!!” I screamed at him in whisper.
Ever so patient, he tried to make things better. “Okay, calm down&STOP JUMPING” he teased.
I started laughing in RL, how’d he know I’d been jumping? He was on a totally different map, but I guess it was predictable.

Learning the hacks, I started at 12 am (I always stay up realy late, because his time zone was 3 hours behind mine). When we finished I looked at the clock again, 4 am. I started laughing, and I was like ROFLMAO ~ spamming him, and he’s like O.O”””

Him taking and wasting about 4 hrs of his life, teaching me something, and never giving up on me, showed me how much he cared.

From then on, he stood up for me, taught me what I needed to learn, showed me a lot of more of maple (he was 8x when I was 5x) T__T.

He was funny, smart, patient, and we just…clicked. Thinking we would be together for so long, thinking if we would ever be separated…but I guess, the day, both of us had been dreading, came onto us, and we both couldn’t stop it.
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“It’s just not working, I’m sorry” He told me.
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That night, I cried. He thought I was with some other guy, also known as cheating. But I wasn’t, I realy wasn’t. But I guess…he just didn’t believe in me the way he use to. Before I fell asleep, I wiped away my tears&thought, “Even if it hurts now, I’ll get over it”. With a few more sniffles, I was asleep.

Shortly after, I was facing my hardest week of the year. I couldn’t make myself delete him off of my BuddyList, and knowing everything time he laughed [lol], I didn’t make him laugh. Wizet was on my side (even if the gms aren’t even around~vacation). Steven, the best thing that can ever happen to me, during that time, came along, pulled me up while I was falling. We were soon together (VERY PREDICTABLE) only problem was, he was about…30 lvls higher than me . Just as I thought I was over Andy, it hit me.

My muimui (means younger sister in chinese). Maple*muimui told me, “JehJeh (older sister), don’t be mad at me, but I think I like Andy.” I was torn, my heart beating fast, tears pressing against my eyelids as I close them. I loved her, she meant a lot to me. Was there when I was upset, laughed with me when we were togheter. I never told her I still liked Andy, seeing them together ever since the day me&him broke up. So I swallowed my pain, and said, “THEN GO FOR HIM!!! D”. Even though it killed, I had to do it.

Weeks Later : They were together, seeing them on my BL going, “I was waiting for you <3”. Him laughing at her jokes, them planning what to do the next day. Now I lost both of them, but still I held it in each day.

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3 Months Later : Lol, 31×3 = 93 days, after that I finally broke down…I deleted them off of buddy, knowing if I said anything I would be cussing. It was one of the meanest things I’ve done, but knowing if I told them, questions, tears from both me&my sister, and pain. I just wanted them to forget me. My friend, Mary, told me it was the right thing, and with her support, I pulled through the first 2 days before they found out. Mary told them she had deleted them. I just hid in my room and cried like an idiot. 2 Weeks later? They broke up, or Andy broke up with her. Saying how she doesn’t believe he loves her, and just…I don’t know. My sister had Andy on buddy, from me from so long ago…so I guess I was kept updated. I felt really bad for my ex*maple sis, feeling the same pain I had felt so long ago, which seemed like yesterday. I re-buddied her, and we were firend’s again, laughing&just together, like we were before. But I guess, I was too trusting.
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The next day…and I was getting married the next D
Andy’s char : Hey I love you.
Me: Hey Sis (Thinking&suspecting it was her…but wondering why? She said Andy had changed his PIN.)
Andy’s char : Sis? I broke up with her to be with you, so you wanna?
Me : Hold on…
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I felt so bad, thinking that -I- was the reason they broke up. I went into the Orbis Guild. Sat there, turned off ALL chats, told my bf to wait, and just sat there and thought. Then I started crying, I was so disgusted with myself. What kind of b*tch was I? I made them break up…I looked at my sister’s comp, (right beside mine).

Andy’s char : im judy.
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Tears came faster and harder, making my face hurt. She tricked me…was this some kind of mean joke ? Didn’t she know I felt like shyt already? Why is she messing it up more? A thousand questions burst into my mind, thinking why? How? I did the thing I had to. Deleted her from buddy, put on blacklist. She came after me saying she was sorry, making her friend’s smega. I was surprised, but my heart was broken, smashed by a mean joke. I couldn’t forgive her just like that. Friendship have to be earned, not pleaded. She lost it, I tried so hard to just…stick with her, but now I felt used.
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Well now here I am…nothing to say, just wanted to pour my feelings out. Thanks for listening guys. I know some of you dislike me, because I used to hack. I know what they say, Once a hacker. Always a hacker. But hacking made me think too much of Andy, and are now deleted, lost in my R.Bin. I know most of you won’t believe me anyways, lol, but it’s what I did, and i’m proud. I never got to spam lvl anyways, cause I never knew how to figure out how to VAC. <3 thanks for my k.muimui for just being there for me, through it all.

<3 Lost within the pain of love.

[I’m sorry if this Blog was REALLY corny, but I made it how i felt it.]

Songs Andy sent me : Never be Replaced ~ 1st Lady
You Were My Everything ~ Chuckie Akenz