Jason, I’m not sure if you’re reading this or not. But I really want you to know how I’m feeling…
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She was heartbroken. As she looked through the equips, she saw it again. The Crush Ring. As she looked at his lowered head, shaking with shame and guilt. Oh, why did he lie to her ? She slumped against the walls of Ludibrium Clock Tower and gave a deep and upsetting sigh.
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That day, she saw a lot of things. She saw her once was love lying to her, wearing that crush ring that shattered their relation ship like glass. She saw her friend’s, standing up for her. She saw her old life slipping behind her already, making room for the new. Then she felt what she’s been dreading the most, a broken heart.
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“Are you sure you want to have a crush ring with me ?” I asked shyly. I spoke softly and calmly, but inside I was so nervous and excited.
“Yea,” he replied in the same soft tone.
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I gathed up my courage, and went to see him. Ludibrium.
“Oh wow, you got NXed.” I looked at him in amazement. He nodded and said it was a gift for his birthday.
I checked through his eqiups, seeing what he wore underneath of all the cash items. My heart skipped a beat, and my breath went shallow. A Crush Ring.
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I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t do it by myself. I called up 2 friends, and asked them to question him. As I sat on a nearby chair, my knees weak, barely able to supoort myself. As I saw them argue, I saw moments of me&him together. How I would beg him to tell me another story, threatening to sit on him if he disagrees. Him teaching me about Maple and how it works. Memories of these burned deep into my heart and my confused mind.
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After that day, we lost touch. I guess we both wanted to forget it, so we did it the easy way, erase&delete. When we met each other, we tried to go the opposite way. But I guess fate doesn’t work exactly the way you want it to. I’m not sure how many times Jason saw ‘me’, but I saw him at least 5 times a week…and everytime I see his IGN, that moment replays in my mind.
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For the last couple of months, I gradually forgot about him…and what had happened. Instead, I missed him, a lot. Until today, I never spoke to him, but now I just want to say. I miss you and I wish things were different >.<

[Poem I wrote for him A LONG TIME AGO]

Lovers we are,
together and forever,
nothing’ll be better,

To show that I care,
I’ll give you a mighty scare,
writin’ this poem to share.

Only for you&me,
nobody else will see,
how we’re there for the other.

I’m so glad you’re here,
Far or near,
I hope that you’ll hear:

Lovers4ever our hearts are pure.

Together we had fun,
when you’re not here,
I’ve had none.

Sometimes,
I think you’re good to be true,
you always know what to do.

All I want you to know,
whatever happens,
good or bad,

Our love will never shatter,
nothing will matter,
as long as we’re together.
<3