Well, if you do, you obviously aren’t the victim of drama have you?!?! -evil stare-
I absolutely HATE it. Andd yet, it’s thrown at me like a fish suddenly slapping you a couple of times with it’s tail when you thought it was dead. [o.o] *btw this blog is rated 95% drama, so run if you hate drama* [it’s also long]

Anyways, this week has been prettyyy tough for me. I had finals, projects, regular hw, tests, the ‘living up to be what your parents want you to be’, and the weight of my dad losing his job. Then, this weekend, the bomb just dropped. It’s not as bad as my dad losing his job, trust me, but it was just. . sad, shall I say?

My friend, let’s name him. . shadow? He has been a great friend, but after we broke up [Yes, he was my msbf don’t go crazy people o.o] He started acting distant, but I was kind of relieved since he stalks me, and demands I go where he goes. He also became pretty weird… Anyways, yesterday [Saturday], he told me he hacks [on another char, his sin is legit]. My jaw dropped to the desk, broke through it, and went down to the floor, and if it wasn’t for me pushing my jaw up again, it probably would’ve gone to China [=__= was that corny??]

You know you just CAN’T stop a friend, even if it was your BEST friend from hacking, but. . hey it worked for my other best friend =). But, I had Shadow to help me get my other best friend to stop hacking. Now. . -sigh- it’s only me. So I start whispering to him to give me a reason.

-reanimates whispers in understandable english-
Shadow: because I’ve always wanted a priest
Me:. . . That’s a pretty pathetic excuse.
Shadow: also, I need money

I could rant and rant about this forever and ever. There is at least ten reasons I can tell him that those excuses were BS.

The guild we were in needed more members in it. I favored small guilds that held little events and didn’t have stupid people in it [aka noobs]. But then, this jr master, which was lvl 25 [emphasize on lvl] started adding new people because my best friend [lets call her, Ana?] wanted more people. I couldn’t handle it, the dude was inviting lvl 20- people!! OK, I don’t HATE newbs [since I was one before], but this was outrageous. Everyone was okay with it, maybe it was just me and my stress. After he finally stopped, we all hanged out in FM. Sure it was fun hanging around, but it was boring. . so. . boring. I was stuck with these people, and I was being left out of everything.

I was brooding over Shadow’s saying that he hacks on his cleric. It was enough pressure with that, but when I tried having fun, it just sucked. So instead of killing everyone’s happiness, I told Ana that I will check up on my old guild [which I only gave a guild BBS since no one was on when I left], and went to my old guild. I was sooo relieved when I got back into my small guild. I felt like some kind of phobia was gone. . finally.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my best friends, but I just snapped. When Shadow came back, he was surprised I left the guild, and started whispering me to ask me why. If I had a chopstick, I would’ve probably snapped that too. He started pleading for me to rejoin. He told me that Ana made that guild for us. But guess what, it isn’t just for us, it’s for hackers, noobs, and us. I absolutely DO NOT tolerate hacking. I’ve had to train harder and harder, but that just made it seem being legit was worth it.

I said no to Shadow, then Ana came into it. She told me that he quit the guild, but I didn’t care about that guild anymore. It was a dead memory, and it should stay as a dead memory. The next day [Sunday] was even worse.

~Sunday~
When I logged on, both of my best friends were offline [phew]. BUT THEN, they logged on [darnit]. I was already bitter from yesterday, and they just keep pushing and pushing it more. They kept begging me, telling me this was our guild, the guild let us spend more time together [even though all 3 of us were buddied], THE GUILD THAT TIES US TOGETHER. I could not believe it. They didn’t even let me get ONE DAY to cool off.

-Takes out bazooka- Shall I end my life today?

I acted cold, unreasonable, and mean to my best friends, and only to them. Shadow was really nice before, but now he acts like a stupid monkey I swear. He demands something and if you don’t do it, he just cries like a baby. So I decided to make him taste his own medicine. I found a dark moonlight with 5 INT [homg o.o] And I asked if anyone needed it. Shadow was implying that he needed it for his hacking cleric. I am NOT gonna give him this somewhat godly clean equip so he can hack with it.

I was training at Mixed stone golems [and it’s pretty hard since the spawn is so freaking fast for me] [oh btw, this hacker came into my channel and traded me, maybe I’ll add the pixes] Shadow said that everyone misses me. Tcha right. Only like 3 people knew me in that guild. I told him that no one misses me besides him, but he said that Ana misses me too. AS IF, I told her that I was going to leave, and she said ok, I’m sure she doesn’t miss the purple writing when I have orange writing. So, one time Shadow was like, “COME BACK TO THE GUILD PLZZZ why won’t you come back??” I ended up just saying : Well, guess what [Shadow], not everything goes your way.

The ending of the day was more or so silent, I told Ana to not worry and maybe I’ll go back to the guild in a couple of days, but it doesn’t seem like I will… I’m so pissed off, I have a lot of great friends, and I trust them dearly not to hack, but when someone does, it makes a hole in my heart in which blood pours out.

Oh, I met fyrerii in Henesys today =) [wow that was random >.>] I don’t think I want to say anymore >.> it was just horrible =__x and it still is. Man, I feel like I’m the drama queen right now, and I hate it! -torches drama clothes- Oh crap, I’m still in it, oh well.

In something totally unrelated [but I talked about maple enough to count this okay]

=) lol Oh, I found an evil wing, dark moonlight, holy cross earring, and 2 blood boards today =) [sorry for the bad edits]