Save me from this chasm of anger and hate…time can’t always heal all things…

I always thought that my family should support me. Why didn’t they, when I became a fire wizard? Maybe they thought I was going to become evil, like most of the fire wizards out there in the world; consumed by the power they had. But I won’t be consumed into that same darkness of power like the rest had been, I just won’t.

[i] Dad: Why, why, WHY, do you always have to disgrace our family?! You should have just left… Left just like your brother had, by-

Sister: OUR BROTHER DIDN’T DIE DAD!! I KNOW HE HASN’T!! AND IF HE DID, IT WOULD BE YOUR FAULT!! YOU DRIVE PEOPLE INTO-

Dad: *Hits her again on the head, red oozing blood starts to pour like rain out of a small injured part of her head* Don’t you DARE say that to ME!! I am your FATHER!!

Mom: Husband!!! Don’t do that!!! You can hurt her very severely!! You don’t even know your strength…Stop yelling!!! Christi… why did you have to make this choice..? You knew it was going to make your dad mad…we don’t need him any angrier than he is right now…Please… just leave.. [/i]

I stared into the moonlit sky as I thought about my past… Why was being a fire wizard that bad? How did it disgrace my family? I was sitting on top of an old, gray rock, as the little, bright stars came twinkling in, shining their light on my almost pale face. Why me? Why was it that I am the one forcing everyone into insanity? Am I to live this kind of torture for the rest of my life? I guess I’ll take advantage of it then, I thought.

As dawn broke in, I woke up sleepily. I remembered my dream just before I woke up into the early morning, where even some of the tiny stars were still out.

[i]Blank: Hey Christi, do you need some help training? I can help ya if you want!
Me: Really?
Blank: Yea!
Me: Hey thanks! It’s hard being a mage you know. I really think I messed up a bit though…
Blank: Hahaha! Well it’s your life, do whatever you feel like![/i]

Who was that friendly person I remembered deep in my head..? Oh well, I guess I won’t see him, considering I’m level 31 now… *sigh..* No more party questing with people anymore…

As I stood up, I rustled my Purple Fairy Robe Skirt into place. Now… where the hell am I? Looking like an idiot, I first put on my blue jester, which made me look even more idiotic. Stretching up I heard a noise..

“Who’s here?!” I yelled out. After traveling so much, and moving to places I haven’t been to, I’ve become very alert of what’s going on.

“Hey! Cool it lil’ girl! I’m ju- Whoa… you look hot!”

“Wha..?” I said, confused.

“Down here dimwit!” As I looked down, I saw a bald boy, probably a warrior with all those big armor plates folding onto another and another plate to protect himself. (Wuss! Jeez he needs armor to protect himself, I though)

“Who are you?” I asked politely, though in the verge of kicking him in the.. jewels.. because of his impolite attitude. *sigh* Why are men always like this I thought.

“Wait… I remember you! I saw you before! Your that lonely girl that walks alone, to a lonely place, so that you can be alone!” He said, still not saying his name. Gosh, how many times can a person say alone or lonely in a sentence? Was that like, three already? “Well, since your such a lonely girl, that goes to a lonely place, I bet you don’t want to be lonely, but your too lonely to say it to anyone, well, because your too lonely to ask!” He explained to himself. Jeez, so talkative… “So! You want to- what ARE you doing..?” he asked as I was pummeling the dewy grass and dirt with my Lemona glove, so that my hands won’t get dirty.

“Dam this evil guy! Why is he pummeling me with the stupid word LONELY?!?!” I thought as I finally stopped beating the ground. It was now full of beaten down grass and dirt on top of the grass. I took off my Lemona, which was now dirty with brown stains of dirt on it.

“Ah, well as I was saying… Do you want to be-” He started.

“No way am I going to be your girlfriend sicko!” I exclaimed.

“Huh?” He said as he scratched his head with his Two-handed sword that he just took out. (Must be level 20+ then I thought)“I don’t want you to be my girlfriend! You’re too ugly to be my girlfriend! I already have a girlfriend to be!” he exclaimed out loud.

“Your girlfriend to be..? Kekeke, you got to be kidding me.” I heard from behind me.

“Oh hey-” He was cut off suddenly when a man came in back of him.

“So this was where you were.. Flirting with another girl I see..” He said with a low voice, that I almost couldn’t hear him. I also couldn’t see him clearly because he was hiding behind a tree.

“HELP!!! HELP!! UGLY GIRL COME HERE AND RESCUE ME!!” I heard the guy I met first before yell out to me. “I PROMISE I WON’T CALL YOU UGLY!!” I thought to myself, should I, or should I not..? I knew there was a girl behind me, so was it really worthwhile to save a guy that says to me I’m ugly?

You don’t know what’s special until it’s gone

Huh? What was that I thought.

Must be nothing, so should i, or should i not…?

Really, you don’t remember me?

————————————Author’s Notes———————————————-

Who ARE these weird people?! What’s with my mind being controlled? O.o lol if enuf ppl like this story I will go on… and yes I’m typing shortened words cuz im finally FREE from writing perfectly >=( hehe anywayz, click on the button that says favorites or whatever plz!

Weird fact: My name is NOT Christi O.o hehe

~Mandeh will take ovr teh world!!!~

Another weird fact: Yes, my name IS Mandy, but Mandeh is cooler >=D

here are pixes of teh gm event for 4th of july, i didnt get to see gm tho T.Twhy did i have to chase them… =.= the last 2 pixes are my in ludi ch1 XD with alot of long swords and high lvled ppl O.o