I guess I should be happy about these things that happen. Winter Events are here. Amoria is out. New NX items in store. I just hit Level 80. And not to mention, one of my good friends is marrying another one of my good friends. But what’s the drag? My friend, the girl that’s being married to, I really like her alot. But when I discovered she was with one of my closest buddies, I didn’t know what to feel. It’s not like I really told her anything or my friend, I just never did anything about it. Here I am, watching things just go by. There’s nothing I can do about it. Well, not that I should. If I just barge, it’ll be dumb and ruin everything I have now. I can’t be selfish. I can’t want just what I want. But this desire just consumes me.
As much as I would want to go back and tell her how I feel, it’s too late. I didn’t do anything. Here I am, watching everything pass me by, and I’m the one falling behind. I should feel happy for the both of them, but I don’t. Even considering the fact she doesn’t even know what this guy looks like, it just eats my heart away. How can you love a total stranger? But then again, the entire world of MapleStory is a world of strangers. I should accept the things going on, but I’m not and I can’t. Here I am, going to watch this go down later today. The marriage between my two closest friends. But hey, it’s just a game. Does it really mean anything? Perhaps. I can’t really bond with either of them as close as the internet will allow.
I shouldn’t deny their affections for each other. They’ve built it together. They’ve worked it themselves. I can’t stop that. I’d ruin it. I want to tell them how I feel, but it’s way too late. It’s like Spiderman 2, but not quite. I’m the hero, but the hero that falls to his best friend. What would Peter Parker do? But in this situation, she doesn’t like me. My friend is my own worst enemy now. There’s so much frickin’ drama in the guild. It’s like everything is against my friend. One of my other buddies doesn’t like the groom. The groom nearly left my guild, but I care too much about my friendship with everyone.
But as much as I want to keep him as my friend, I envy him. I’m jealous of their relationship. I want to be with the girl, but I can’t ruin it for the other. I’m feeling like none of this should happen. Why should I stop their happiness when they can be happy together? Should I be greedy and stop this? Maybe I would, but she won’t like me. I’d lose both of my friends. But maybe she will, but I’d lose my other friend. Perhaps I should leave them alone and watch them be happy. You’d be happy if your friends were happy too, right? Why aren’t I?
The wedding is later today. Here I am, just watching from afar as everything slips me by. The world sleeps tonight, and I walk these streets searching for the other half of my heart. No wonder I’m feeling a bit heartless. I don’t really have the other half.
[Note] I deleted the names to protect them. If you know who they are, please don’t interfere? This is my problem. Not yours.
D: I dont know what you should do. That happened to me one and it crushed me. I wanted to run in there and tell her how i felt, but also didn’t want to ruin our friendship. It’s a tough thing to go through, just hang in there. D:
Her own fault for falling in love with a pixelated character. Some people don’t realize that personalities sometimes change drastically while communicating online, she could be ‘falling in love’ with a person who she will truly never know. Forget about her. You are doing well not to interfear with them, though. That is very admirable of you. Just move on.
Good luck Jing.
I’ll be online tonight.
Hopefully I’ll get to talk to you.
If it’s any consolation
I didn’t marry Hero.
Sure, I didn’t particularly love him but. . .
but. . .
Ouch *winces*
That’s why I’m staying away from love until I can handle the pain of it.
BTW, you’re in Windia?!
Heh.
Read the invitation then read the message in the chat box.
It seems the invitation was rather a shock.
D: ouch. -gives you a hug- I don’t know what to say really D: except, even though we don’t know each other~ Whisper me on Fyrerii (windia aswell) if you needta talk D:
*pokes Jing*
heh. i guess. love’s unfair like that ;/ we always don’t get what we want. and when we do, it’s never what we expect.
at least not what I expected at least.
unless you’re sure she’s a little bit, feeling that way towards you too, just stay out of it. i know, it sounds really bad but that’s what i would do. watching someone i love getting married to someone else? walala~ i’d just leave them alone and just probably. overthink life. @__@; i’m gay like that.
then write something about who you are ;O i’d love to read it d^^b
*yay for cheesey smileys*
It’s happened to me before, believe me, don’t mention it. If you’re lucky (mean thing to say for them, really) then they’ll edge apart. And if it does happen, then be there for her and hope for the best. But, yeah, good luck.
EDIT: DO NOT, I say, DO NOT go to the wedding. But if you can, make sure you’re online at the time. It should say something in itself. It’s the best move.