So Tuesday I got back on MapleStory, after my break.
Here’s my story of MapleStory up until today (Note: Today’s is very long and rant-ish because I was upset. And still am. And angry. And sad. Oh wait, I’m making you not want to read it already because I’m going on and on, aren’t I? Well, carry on.)

Tuesday: Got back on MapleStory. I talked to some of my old friends. I found my friend Pai and used my Maple Points from the Spot On quest to get some Chocolate. I used it to thank her for giving me a white and blue rose.

Wednesday: I got invited to a gulid member’s wedding, and he gave me a dark snowboard.

Thursday: Hung out around HHG1.

Friday: I was busy and didn’t go on today…

Saturday: I made the decision that I was GOING TO LEVEL on Monday. Then I trained up to 48%.
Sunday: I trained to 78% today.
Monday, today: I leveled up, then attended the guild member’s wedding. After everyone logged off, I decided to head to Ludibrium. Once there I decided I wanted to go to Omega Sector. Then I decided to do the Fuel for MT-09 or whatever it’s called quest.
That’s when things spun out of control.
I saw a 2 people trying to kill an MT-09. I thought they looked like they needed help to me, so I helped them kill it (or I’d thought I was helping at the time) and then I killed the other two that spawned. It dawned on me near the end of the second one that maybe they didn’t need help, but it is STRONGLY against my philosophy to consider that killing on bosses is KSing because it’s not anyone’s map but everyone wants to kill the boss, and if it’s one like MT-09 or Chief Gray or Rombot there’s no need to be mad because they spawn so frequently. I’ve been KS’d many a time on Chief Gray (probably 11 times in a row actually XD) and Rombot (Yes it’s sad I got KS’d on ROMBOT >.&gt, but I’d never let it get to me. Seriously, who cares? I sure didn’t. Besides it’s not like I’d wanted to KS them in the begining – I’d seriously thought that they needed help killing it, that they’d gone out to kill it but overestimated their ability. It wasn’t like I was just some rude person bent on KSing the world. Heck, I don’t even think I’d be able to KS half the people at MT-09. I’d left someone else killing an MT-09 alone – they could handle it. However these two got all bent out of shape about me trying to help. . .

They started cursing at me, they both defamed me, and they called me other hurtful things that don’t involve cursing but in other ways are just as hurtful, if not more hurtful.

What did I do in response? Try to explain what I was doing. Try not to get mad. Try to calmly get them to see things out of my eyes, things on my side of the computer screen. . .

And yet the insults continued. In fact they’d probably still be insulting me if I hadn’t logged off to blog. Insults always really upset me, even if they are unfair and even if they are said only to upset me. I probably would’ve gotten way more upset if I hadn’t been on the phone with a friend.

That reminds me, they insulted my MS friends. The guy told me he’d KS me, and I told him to have a good time stalking me while I talked to my friends. (I don’t train often anway.) He just told me that they must all be rude KSers like ME. I’m really against KSing though. . . I just thought they needed the help. . .

This is what I get when I attempt to help someone who I thought needed it?

Couldn’t they just have asked me politely to not kill the MT-09s?

Couldn’t they have been nice?

And here I am, upset on the day that should be the best one in my newby MS life. You see, ever since I started MS my huge goal was level 50. I always thought that I’d be so happy on this day, that I would practically jump for joy and I would just forget about all my problems. This was supposed to be the day I’d played about a 1 1/3 years for. But all I see now is crushed hopes.

I probably wouldn’t care THAT much and I’d just let this flit away after a few minutes if he hadn’t said he was going to mass defame me to below 20 I don’t care about fame usually.

But he knew I was using a dark calaf. He knew I only had 32 fame now and it wouldn’t be that hard to mass defame me down to below 20.

He knew he was mean, I know that.

I’m scared. I want to keep my armour on and hold my head high… but I can’t.

I’m nervous. What’s the point of having a dark calaf if you can’t use it? Sure I still have my red moonlight in my inventory. . . but I prefer having the extra intellegence and defence from the calaf.

What’s a girl supposed to do at a time like this? I don’t know if there’s a better answer than cower in fear like they want me to and not go on MS for another month or ten.

But I just got back on MS after a month of not really training at all. I have real motivation to level now, which is something I rarely have – usually I just talk to my friends like I mentioned before. I want nothing more than to just go in and train but I’m afraid I can’t.

What to do. . .

And I thought I was doing something nice. I’m sad now. I don’t want to be mass defamed, I don’t want to be called rude names, and I don’t want to be insulted.

Especially when I’m just trying to do the right thing.

Screenshots:
#1: Level up. I wish I could rewind time to those brief few hours of real level 50 happiness.
#2: OXOcassieOX and AngusSteaL, the two I’d thought I was helping. In this screenie cassie (the girl) is calling me ugly and Steal (the boy) is trying to shoo me away like I’m a fly.
#3: In this screenie cassie is trying to tell me how low I am (for trying to help her and her friend!?!?!) and Steal is calling me a KSer and. . . a word I’d really rather not type.
#4: This was my guild member’s wedding; it was Javi and Fin. Congrats to them
#5: Another screenshot from the wedding.

They also said several other. . . let’s just say not so nice words to me, said several other insults and both defamed me. I just didn’t get a screen of them. I should’ve extended that chat box and screenied it but I was too upset.

The moral? I don’t know. . . never help anyone? It just doesn’t seem right to me, but since I got insulted because I tried to help something it seems almost as though that SHOULD be the moral.

Confused, hiding, upset, and helpless,
~Cat~The~Cookay
(Cookay is my nickname. Pai is my one friend’s nickname, I believe I mentioned her in my brief Tuesday description. We gave each other nicknames for who knows why, and they stuck. Cookay means cookie and Pai means pie. Good times, good times. . .)

Thank you VERY much if you read through the entire thing.