We all know I have a habit of writing blogs about people. So, yet again, here is another. And, although most of them are only interesting to the person they’re about, please read this one. It’s important to me, in a way.

I always start out by saying how it all began. So, not being one to break traditions, here is my beginning with this person.

I had just killed a load of Curse Eyes, and had decided to stop by the Sleepywood Sauna. I’ve always liked the Sauna, because people of all levels come there to rest, and it’s a nice place to just sit and watch the people go by.

One person there had caught my attention. His name was original, which is always an attention-getter, and he seemed playful and hyper. He hadn’t stayed still for the entire 10 mintues I’d been there already, and by then I was completely healed. I just decided to stick around some more.

Some random person, a much lower level theif, used “Dark Sight” in front of a red sign.

Him: My head is red!
Me: O_O Woah, way too much information.
Friend: xD I’ll applaud that sense of humor.

And so our conversation began. I had noticed that he wasn’t in a guild. I offered to put in a good word for him to the guild leader, hoping that maybe, just maybe, he would be able to join. As soon as the guild leader was online, I immediately told him of this new person. He agreed to give him a chance in the guild.

Guild leader: Is he mature and active?
Me: He wants to know whether you’re mature and active.
Friend: Mature? Pssh. Active? Yes.

He was in the guild in a matter of seconds.

Later in the week, maybe a day after we had met, I told my buddy list that I was going to Orbis, in case anyone wished to accompany me. My new friend had told me to wait for him and “Claire,” so I did.
On the boat ride there, I said something along the lines of, “I <3 you.” (Jokingly, of course.) and my new friend had warned me not to say that in front of “Claire”.
I am not exactly stupid, so it was fairly obvious that “Claire” was my friend’s girlfriend.

Later in the month, I told my friend that I wished he could level faster so I could do a Ludibrium Party Quest with him and a few other friends. He had said, “I can’t level right now. I’m hanging with Claire. Claire > Training.”
After little discussion, I had understood that my friend wouldn’t be levelling right now because he was busy. This, I believe, is sufficient proof that my friend was, to say the least, devoted.

And now, we have arrived at present day.

I go onto my favorite instant messaging system, and although I don’t remember how it came up, my friend was talking about how someone told Claire that he was using her. I was immediately concerned and confused. My friend was very fond of Claire. It’s not like him to want to use her.
So I go onto MapleStory. My friend is talking about quitting, and I don’t believe he was trying to make a big deal out of it. He then logs off, and I desperately try to figure out what is going on. I then become disconnected at a perfectly annoying time, and the instant that I get back on I see my friend saying some things about someone in Buddy Chat that implies something bad happening. I asked the said person what is going on with my friend, and he is obviously as clueless as I am.

Again I sign onto my favorite instant messanging system, and I attempt to start a conversation with my friend. He replies, “If it’s about MS, I don’t want to hear it.”
I chose to leave him alone. I did not want to get him any more upset than he already was.

As I was killing Jr. Grupins in Orbis, I hear someone say over buddy chat how my friend had spoken with him. The conversation had taken a turn for the worse as my friend said, “You are the only one on my BL… that knows about me and _____”
This, obviously, made me even more confused. He had not said anything about Claire, but rather another girl. I went and asked my friend over AIM who _____ was. He replied, “My ex. She isn’t in MS.”
That’s when things really went up-side-down and backwards. I had just spoken, in MS, to someone named _____ who claimed to be my friend’s ex. She said she didn’t know him in real life. How was this possible? Who was I to believe?

About one hour ago, I spoke with my good friend Ryan, for possibly the last time. Do you want to know what happened? It’s kind of a screwy ending, with me still being clueless.

Him: What they said to Claire wasn’t the truth. And if you want a memory of me, ask [his other friend]. He took everything from my character. Ev-er-y thing.
Me: I guess I should just let you know that I still believe you, and that I still like you as a friend, whether or not anyone else does.
Him: Lmfao. Have you ever even seen me?
Me: No, but that doesn’t affect whether or not I can like your personality and consider you a friend.

He then proceeded to attempt to send me a picture. I felt as though it wasn’t necessary, and declined. I didn’t wish to bother him further, so I signed off.

The beginning of this story was about a month ago, or maybe a bit less. And it has and it has ended at this very hour, this very minute, this very second. And you know what? I think I’ve been confused the entire time. Ryan confused me. And I’m still confused. I don’t know who to believe, or what to do. I don’t know if what I did was right, trying to figure out the truth. Should I have just let it go, without any trouble? I don’t really know the answer, and I don’t really know if that question was meant to have one.

All I know is that it is now 8:21 PM, and I’m about to go to bed. I’m going to have some really crazy dreams tonight, I know it. I try to not let MS seep into my life, but I fear that today, it has. So wish me luck in Dream-Land. I believe I’m going to need it.

~Fae (Formerly known as Panda)